Past Ramblings: Part 6
Today was an alright day. It was somewhat busy, but I have this general feeling of, I dunno, like I'm missing something. The holidays can be a reminder sometimes, I think, of things which are lacking from our lives. I remember last year's holiday season and it was a marked difference from this year (not that it was any better, it was just different).
Originally Posted 12.11.04
Today was an alright day. It was somewhat busy, but I have this general feeling of, I dunno, like I'm missing something. The holidays can be a reminder sometimes, I think, of things which are lacking from our lives. I remember last year's holiday season and it was a marked difference from this year (not that it was any better, it was just different).
I was at the gym the other day and this lady got on the Pre-Cor next to me and started a convo with me. It was one of those deals where she was wanting to check me out and see if I was single or something. She wanted to know if I was married, I said "no." Then, she asked how old I was and I was like, "I'm 28." And then she gave me this awesome look and said, "That's kinda' old. Are you picky or sumthin? You're a good-lookin' man."
It's times like those that I don't really know how to respond to people. I just kinda' condensed my relationship history into the 20 second version... something about having just come out of a serious relationship. Which in some ways, it still feels like, you know? I mean, I know we had broken up back in February, but I didn't ever feel any closure until quite a bit later. I guess it's because I always had to be around her and see her. I still don't like having to be around her, but if I have to, I guess "you do what you gotta' do." For those who read this and have no clue what I'm talking about, I have yet to post the entire story of that period of time... it will be forthcoming, and in all its gory detail.
I know there's folks out there who love to read a good story, especially one where the hero(?) gets the emotional crap beaten out of him. Anthony's been talking about doing a short... the idea of one about my breakup story was tossed around. I thought it would be funny, like in a Ben Stiller kinda' way. He is kinda' driving the idea of a short and wants to do something about relationships/dating. Karen Simons couldn't stop laughing when I told her about the whole progression: Girlfriend leaves, roommate/best friend leaves, business partner/surrogate big sister leaves... and then the cat takes a hike. Closing Shot: Hero sitting alone in a dark house holding a cat's collar. Cut to: Cat sitting on a satin pillow, eating cavier or something like that, LOL.
I wouldn't necessarily have thought of all this unless that doggone woman at the gym hadn't asked me about that. I just kinda' laughed off what she said and continued a convo with her. However, it was a good night at the gym because I definitely feel like I am getting back into my groove of wanting to work out. This time, though, I am going to pile on strength training and try and strengthen my shoulders, chest and arms instead of just cardio and circuit training. Mike has shown me all kinds of new strength-building free weight exercises that have introduced me to all new levels of soreness and buffness, I might add. My shoulders, arms and chest just feel bigger... I think it's already working, after only two weeks. But I have so much more to do to stabilize my routine. I have been researching and have a copy of Thomas Jane's routine he used to get into shape for "The Punisher." I am probably going to use a modified version of that four-day a week program.
Alright, well good night and more later!